It feels like you’re done. I don’t know why it hurts so badly. I just want to run away but who am I kidding? I can’t run in my condition. Everything hurts. Surgery is coming up and I’m scared shitless. I want reassurance from you and just you. Maybe you don’t understand how it feels like in my position. You chose your boy over me. Tell me, is he going to be there forever? Will he love and take care of you like how I do? I don’t know who you’ve become but I don’t like him a tab bit. You talk to me as if I ain’t shit or as if I didn’t mean anything to you. It hurts and it’ll always hurt. Today was suppose to be our five months but I guess I should hold onto something that’s suppose to be let go. If you ain’t holdin onto it, then why should I? Its so obvious and clear to me now. Heh, I’m so stubborn..
Oh and happy what was suppose to be anniversary…